I gave you your chances yet you keep on blowing them. But despite those things, I would've given you another chance if you would have to ask right now. But you're not asking for any chances or whatsoever things that would get us back together. I swear to God that I would've have wanted to you ask for another chance. Every night I pray. That things would be better for the both of us. But seems like I have to give up. You're no longer to be found. You're gone.

Right now, I know that you're very happy on how things are going. You have someone and I bet she really does love you. And I know you feel the same way too. I would've just wish it was me. It hurts seeing you happy with her when you could have been happier with me. It hurts seeing you and her exchanging i love yous when I could have said it better.I cant take it when you call her on what you used to call me. The way you say you love her. The way you treat her. The way you shout to the world how much you love her. It hurts me. Everything hurts me. And it kills me so much that I have to deal with it every single day.

I have to admit that I am still not over you. And I'm afraid that I won't ever get to recover from this pain you've brought me. You've hurt me too many times. Yet I still continue to love you. Stupid right? I still manage to believe you even though the truth is lying right in front of me that you no longer care for me.That you no longer love me. I tried to ignore it. Making myself believe that you still love me. Making myself go blind. Not letting myself see the mistakes you've done.

I lost myself because of you. I know that there's no sense in going back to our memories because there is no longer you and me. What happened two years ago won't happen anymore. I need to wake up from this nightmare. Its eating me.

I keep on asking myself. Does it really have to be this way? Do I really have to deal with this everyday? Do i really have to deserve this hurt? Isn't this too much?

Maybe. Maybe I need to suffer. Maybe I deserve all of these hatred because I made a mistake in the first place. Maybe this my price for stealing you from someone. Karma as what people say. But looking on the other side maybe it does have to b this way, maybe I do have to deal with this everyday, and maybe I do deserve this.

I need to suffer to move on. To keep me strong so that I could move forward.
 
So I will let you go now. I am sure of it. I know it'll hurt me as much as what I am feeling right now, but i have to. It's the best and the right thing to do.

I'll leave you now at peace. I'll start moving forward. I'll be okay. I promise. I'll be happy.